Went cleaning through my hard drives and found some old photos. Going through pictures from 6 or more years ago brings back crazy memories and feelings. I don't feel like I even know the person that I see in most of the photos, let alone it be me. So much has happened, so much has changed, and so many things keep changing, sometimes it feels difficult to keep up with. I don't tend to look into my past, as I am a huge believer in looking forward and ahead, not back, but the pa

This is a very real and personal post; possible trigger warning: 7 years ago today I did something that 7 years ago I didn't know if I could do. At 17, I had been struggling to breathe under the grasp of self harm for years. The emotional pain at that point in my life was so overwhelming I tried desperately to find a way to transfer some of it to the physical. What started as an outlet for pain turned into a full blown addiction. I began to feel little to no physical pain.